perfect

As I sat with Owen tonight and colored, I see his character traits becoming more evident.  He refused to color because "I keep messing up, I keep getting out of the lines, I can't do it right, --- you do it."  He expects perfection from his 5 year old hands.  And I say -- I think its beautiful, I think your doing great -- it's perfect!  But to him it is less than perfect.  And if mommy can do it better, I will let her do it.

my mind turns - how can i fix this, what can i say, what if he's like this forever, how will he ever get through school........

perfect only comes from God

then I feel that turn in the back of my mind that makes me shiver

I do this too.  I do not always work for God's kingdom, I don't always witness when I should, I don't always give my testimony when I need to, I don't pray like I should -- I am less than perfect.  And so and so from down the road is so much better at witnessing,  I should tell them to talk to this person.  I should let other people who are better at God's work do the work because "I keep messing up, I keep getting out of the lines, I can't do it right, --- you do it."


"Make every effort to enter through the narrow door, because many, I tell you, will try to enter and will not be able to." Luke 13:24

"As long as it is day, we must do the work of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work."  John 9:4

Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.  

Matthew 5:48

not defeated

 

Life is sometimes hard.  We do not always live on top of the mountain spiritual.  We don't always feel that God is at work around us.  But despite he is there.  He will not let us fall where he can't catch us.   Let us not give up on what God can do for us.

2 Corinthians 4:7-12 - ⁷ But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. ⁸ We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; ⁹ persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. ¹⁰ We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. ¹¹ For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body. ¹² So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

 

 

 

 The spirit has been whispering to me for some time to speak at church, and this Sunday I am speaking for Women's Sunday.  I plan to give my testimony and share some verses.  Please pray this week that my words will be God's words and that others may find hope.

lately

Lately...........

the warm sunshine has put a smile on my face and  I have enjoyed walking to my car in the morning

my students have made me laugh a lot

my husband has helped out around the house, which i am very thankful for


i have watched my son grow up before my eyes....he wrote all his valentines by himself...and i have wished he wouldn't grow so fast

i have wished for summer and fun times like above :)


i have wished i could smell the ocean


nothing has seemed to taste very good but it hasn't stopped me from eatting it


i have had a strong desire to read more of the bible 

i've have enjoyed sitting silently and doing nothing

my "sister" made me feel loved....Blog about me

the baby has started to show me he/she is there through movement :)

i have found lots of things online i wanted to buy, but didn't

 

things have been pretty good - smiles, laughter, family, God's fingerprints every where I look

 

fingerprint friday

Sunshine Comes

do you ever just feel like the rug is coming unraveled?

the bottom is slowly falling out?

I'm not sure if it is the hormonal casserole (Callie Torres, Grey's Anatomy) that I am lately (due to pregnancy), but the last week or so I have felt the anxiety rise and when this happens I tend to see things towards the half empty glass instead of the optimist person I usually am.  I let things get to me that I shouldn't.  How should I take that comment from my friend?  I wonder why no one has texted me today?  I'm sure no one appreciates the things I do. Wonder what would happen if I stopped doing the laundry?  and the list goes on....  I can't go to sleep and I want to cry sometimes....yes I know the symptoms.   But then it comes....exactly what you need....maybe not to get you over the disappoint but at least to get you through the day.

"So we must not get tired of doing good, for we will reap at the proper time if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9

So, on a Sunday full of sunshine I see a little light that will last through Monday, maybe even longer. 

Crazy Little Thing Called Love

 ^{February the month of love.  We started a new study in Sunday School yesterday, a study on the outrageous love God has for us.  It amazing to me how often we put restraints on God's love, like oh God wouldn't that.  So, I began I posed the question whats the craziest thing you ever did for love?  This makes me laugh, I have done some crazy things for love - stayed up all night knowing I have work the next day,  driven many miles for only a few hours together, this list could go on for a while.  And then we read our first verses.....}

^{Hosea 1}

  ² When the LORD began to speak through Hosea, the LORD said to him, “Go, marry a promiscuous woman and have children with her, for like an adulterous wife this land is guilty of unfaithfulness to the LORD.” ³ So he married Gomer daughter of Diblaim, and she conceived and bore him a son. 

 and they looked at me the teacher and I looked at them and said "Yes, God said "Hosea go marry a whore."  Now, it takes a while to get over this shock.  And we question God and our mind does circles.  Sexual acts, sins, talk in general - there not ok - people in church don't have sex....right. 

  But once you get over that and in to this part - "this land is guilty of unfaithfulness to the Lord".  And I studied these verses last week, it wasn't until later in my study that I realized that I was not Hosea the God like prophet, but instead Gomer the promiscuous women.  And you sink lower and lower in your chair, when you realize you have CHEATED on God!  Money, family, work, sleep, food....the list goes on....become more important and you put God to the side.  

But there is more to the story, thankful.  Hosea faces humiliation, embarrassment, loss, pain, and sadness when he has to go and buy his wife back as she has fallen in to slavery.  

Hosea 3: 1  The LORD said to me, “Go, show your love to your wife again, though she is loved by another man and is an adulteress. Love her as the LORD loves the Israelites, though they turn to other gods and love the sacred raisin cakes.”  ² So I bought her for fifteen shekels of silver and about a homer and a lethek of barley. 

Just as we had to be bought by Jesus.......     

(And we think the Bible is out of touch with today's society.   As I told my class, God knows how much we like drama.)

linking up with some great ladies:

Sprite and Sweet-tarts

I know I need to blog more, I need to pray more, I need to read my bible more, I need to spend more time with my husband, I need to do more laundry, I need to visit more people......the list goes on.

But all I can think about is the life inside me. I felt so pregnant today: hunger, tired, irritable, tender breasts, itchy belly, lots of trips to the bathroom just to pee a little bit. I can't get enough to drink and enough fruity things - today Sweet-Tarts. One of my students last week posed the following question "I didn't know you could harbor a child and be a teacher?" So, the joke of the hallway now is that I'm harboring a child, I'm here to tell you this ship is enjoying the trip.  Pregnancy is such an experience, you can't help but feel God at work.

A blessing at the end of the week:

Owen received the CITIZEN of the Month award for his class! So proud :)