are you mad at me?

growing up i would ask my best friend at least 10 times a day if she was mad at me
i know it drove her crazy
yet she remained my friend and is still my friend today, thankfully
but my problems with insecurity unfortunately have hung around as well
i'll be honest i replay every conversation in my head 
trying to judge if anything i said could have made someone mad
i judge body language and tone way too seriously 
and now in the world of text when you can't
i find myself going now is this okay like okay or like OK
or is this yes happy or yes if have to
or is this thanks sarcastic or sincere
my mind runs consistently if i let it
which is no good
it's no good for my friends or me
so i work hard against it
but when i least expect it sneaks up on me 
this worry of what others think of me
the thought that someone doesn't like me or is mad at me
is haunting really
relationships are risky
friendships can be made and broken with a simple statement or act.......
but what if they weren't 
what if grace was the norm
forgiveness and acceptance were offered instead
today i read Romans 12 and these verses stuck out

Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.  Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.  Do not be conceited. Romans 12:14-16

so my question for you is this

how are you at risky friendships?  
are you open and honest with no second thoughts?  
do you filter your conversations?
do you offer grace?

i believe God wants us to live this life with people to lean on
friends who understand us and pick us up when we fall down
without worry or doubt

ps i have the best friends in the world!!!  i thank God for them everyday and that they love me in spite of my insecurities.